For my Brothers and Sisters…

Let the soul of thousands lie in peace and let the burning wounds heal sooner. Hearty prayers for my brothers and sisters in Srilanka. I do not want to argue about anything from Prabhakaran’s death or war is same anywhere, etc etc… Just writing this out of an unrest in the mind for the past few days. I really dont know what the human race gonna achieve from killing people in bunches and bunches whatever be the reason behind. I am not an expert in biology or natgeo databases but I think human race will be the only race who can kill their own lakhs and lakhs of people just in the name of war. Be it Africa or be it Srilanka. And shame of US or UK or UN which are so called the protectors of world. FUCK you all. Just fed up of their philosophy of only people in America or people in power are eligible to live and all others are eligible to live on luck basis. For a single attack on US it still keeps on demolishing countries to prevent future attacks, whereas just giving objections reports in papers about lakhs and lakhs people being killed in other places of world for that doesn’t going to affect them. I am also shameful of I am part of this materialistic world and i really don’t know whats the solution. Its easy to say that this is how things and we have to accept, in fact i have told the same to few people but it doesn’t seem to be a convincing stuff. I am still not able to digest I am part of this materialistic world. Sorry my brothers and sisters all over the world who are undergoing this sufferings. Sorry for I am helpless. May your souls rest in peace, may ur souls not feel the pain ur body came across. All I can do here is sit in one corner of the world and pray for the rest of the alive friends though I am not sure if its gonna help. The reason that it hurts more for me about srilanka is that they speak the as me, in a way they have more affection towards my language, still they consider us, the people in Tamilnadu as their relatives. May be I am realizing the pain this time more closer.A knife or a bullet hurts everyone you, me or anyone either its from Pakistan or from Srilanka. Its getting too much and too much !!!

The so called God if at all you exist, please let not this happen in future !! Please save my borthers and sisters all over the world !! For there is no other point for you to exist !!

Helsinki-Nordkapp-Tromso-Helsinki

One more time Norway hugged, welcomed and kept us warm. I hope she too knew that these memories will remain warm forever in me. One more impact from her,

“Kindness to Strangers”

We had an invitation from a Norwegian family there,  just when we stopped for taking some photos. The treatment we got was unforgettable. And thanks to Vivek for framing this sentence, actually the copyrights of the sentence goes to him. Otherwise i don’t know, may be i would have written 5 or 6 paragraph to explain how I felt about that experience.

Kudos, Kudos, Kudos to Norway !!!

Nordkapp

Nine more days…sitting fingers crossed for the Nordkapp trip once more, hoping to see in some light this time. Planning to do some more driving in the trip, can’t let Vivek to taste it all alone

Norwegian lands….awaiting to embrace you.

Bending before the EGO

Tracing back a long way into the time i remember the first time recognition of the tree called expectations. For some good or bad reason it didn’t bother or i was too busy to get bothered at that time. Walking down a few years from that point i traced the same expectations during my teen age but this time i could recognize it was a bit strong now and having it roots in different points. Again one by one it got uprooted by itself  but not the taproot. As far as i could remember the tap root of the tree was growing deeper and deeper for approximately 5 years, a good time for it to grow strong enough. Incurring a heaving pain one fine day inside the walls of a cemetery uprooted the last tap root as well and had a feeling i am flying free and there is no more tree of expectation in my garden.

To prove all it was vain after almost 2 years, a little bit of chemical reaction im my mind showed me that those still exist, not necessarily in the form of  tree but as patterns i didn’t recognise for years,  playing a hide and hide game. I bow before you my ego and wish a day comes when i cross you forever and could enjoy my nudity rather than sitting crooked as this time. But one good about it as well, everytime i fight with you, then getting the pain, after the hard earned winning , those objects to which you were sticking seems to be more beautiful and glowing than ever.

Once again into the Land of wonders..

After the failed first attempt to write a LOT about the Helsinki-Kirkenes-Nordkapp trip for christmas vacation, i am writing from scratch for the second time.

All the way through the northern norway Kirkenes to Norkapp only thing I could do is a humble bow, to the extreme mystery behind the Gigantic mountains, deserted house – a single house on top of a hill or a single house in middle of a river, or a single house in middle of a huge plain. All i was feeling is like the myths,stories,tales about the longliving Himalyas and her saints came true in front of my eyes but as a modern living. Fortunately or unfortunately we had hardly 2 hrs of sunlight for a day to see this extreme presence of nature in this part of the world but yet a fullfiled experience. Though the last 30 kms of the road was closed due to a bad weather it didn’t stop me from drowing in the beauty of the glorious mountains and nature… Hats off once again…wish i will see thy again…..

Courtesy: Bhaskar’s driving in that extremely bad weather

Crew: Arun, Sankar, Bhaskar and me.

Funny/Scary part: Our return journey down the hill was accompanied by bulldozer and ambulance(due to bad weather) fearing our car will jump out the mountain roads. :p

Ding dong..

Chirping of Birds,

Play from a big group of Fiddlers,

Water drumming at the shore,

A lone voice of an arctic winter wind,

Music melting down from flute through the air,

A kids long lasting giggling, cry for chocolate, shouting stubbornly for small things, the sound of speaking and scribbling in the notebooks…

All ended in the morning alarm with my mobile ringtone ‘Ding dong’

No regrets. The moments I got to listen to all the above were true, yes I was lucky to listen, enjoy, to cherish the moments.

All were started from the moment my music player was switched on and ended in this morning, today’s morning. Who knows it got switched off in the middle of my yesterdays sleep. And now I got to rush up for living my today. No time to sit and look back, but I can feel happy on my way today for I got to listen all those yesterday .

Thanks for all the yesterday’s and almighty, make the world peaceful for everyone from today and for all the tomorrow.

PS: For the readers who could not understand the above, I am sorry I too have no answers for you for I am writing this one for MYSELF.

This one escaped quickly from my system to wordpress database when I am yet to finish an earlier writing on ‘Nordkapp’. Coming soon…

Every Thing is part of Altogether

From day one,

Every single movement right from moving from a men to women,

The later giving the place to nourish, freedom to grow,

Though u suck from inside her and outside,

The former melting all his physical and mental to mould thee,

Thy taking a few days to blink, to search around, to identify, to hold the fingers,

**ChAnGe%%&&

life keeps changing… always and always…here too some change..change in location…. change in people around..change and change…. is it gonna answer all my questions which was running across early…. may be…may be not….still it is a change….once i feel the answers are near will write again on this..till then i just keep tasting the change…..

Trend continues…

Trend continues…. something is pulling in more and more …. couldn’t figure out exactly what is…..sitting idle….. feeling like brain had stopped working….nothing is passed in or out of mind…. driving crazy….sitting in  no man’s land….nothings seems to be interesting….i don’t remember sitting this way for a long time…. with no clue what it is all, the only option got is to watch inside silently what it is all and to know exactly where the thorn is stuck ….. may the very being be on my side !!!!

Right now !!!

What am i doing right now !!! I dont have an answer !!!

Getting up in the morning, brushing, shitting, bathing, eating breakfast, dressing myself thats washed and ironed by someone, riding a bike all the way from house to office, reach office remove my helmet adjusting my hair style in my half broken rear mirror, getting into lift reaching 8th floor, same security, same smile, same card swipe, pull the chair, switch on only the monitor of already running mahcine, check mails, check mails, check mails, browse something, chit chat about everything from politics to terrorism to bush to