Converse

It’s all calm now….
It’s better this way…
How do I answer the questions, when I am filled with questions?

All I need is a conversation in silence.

Could someone converse?
I do not see one.
Everyone tries it for some time,
ends with words in the end.
Only words make sense to Everyone.

All I speak is all that the world require.
Because the real I am has nothing to speak.
The real I am has nothing to speak.

All I need is a conversation in silence.

Everyone is ready with answers in future,
when my Questions are stuck in past.
Oh no! Future is the place where one can live.
But how do I bring my dead questions to future, they are dead unanswered.

Worst is the time getting haunted by dead,
Be it questions, be it the ghosts.

There are few who keep the questions aside
Both mine and theirs…
I live on them, I live on them.
Ha ha ha, Ha ha ha.
I live on them, I live on them.

Does all this makes any sense?
Who cares!!

All I need is a conversation in silence.

output of watching amadeus + my mind

Few beautiful songs..

From Kannadhasan the Great:

From M.S.Subbulakshmi amma:

From the Genius KJ Yesudas:

Experiments from Shankar Tucker:

Harivarasanam

On penance as a preparation to the Sabarimalai pilgrimage on December 17th. To know more about sabarimalai: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sabarimala

Listening to Harivarasanam in Sabarimalai is a wonderful experience. Swamye Saranam Ayyappa

Hope…

Shawshank Redemption

Andy Dufresne: … there are places in this world that aren’t made out of stone. That there’s something inside… that they can’t get to, that they can’t touch. That’s yours.
Red: What’re you talking about?
Andy Dufresne: Hope.

After 6 months

My first blog in 6 months. Lots of news, in fact a lot of good news around:
1. Sez got engaged
2. Boobal got engaged
3. Vivek marriage is done
4. Chief minister got changed (now don’t know if thats really a good news but I wished for a change)
5. Crown to all I quit TCS yesterday (no one is permitted to ask the immediate question: what next ?????). Well I believe its for good. Planning to spend the time for only the things that I love to do.

Will keep updating….

End of the year..

Year end and here is my last blog for 2010. Did not pen down since September. Lots of stuff going around. Using the time to read lots of articles by Charu Nivedita, S Ramakrishnan, Prabanjan, Mahendran. Never thought I would read this much books and really happy to know there are so many good things around in Tamil literature. Personally I feel if people are made aware that these many books are there then the poor Tamil writers would not suffer as they do now.
Also bought a couple of books from outside our literature like The Book Of Disquiet by Fernando Pessoa, The Brothers Karamazov by Fyodor Dostoevsky though did not start reading them yet. Adding to this We(me, Siva, Sezhiyan, Dheepack, Boobalan, Gopi, Shankar) been to a trip to kerala last week to allepey and Kuttikanam. Beautiful places, yet to work on the videos.
Last but not least missed the trip to Iceland. Vivek, Kiran and Ramanan had been to + Sigur ros live concert. There could not be a better compliment for the trip. Wish I’ll make it to Iceland some day

Wishing everyone a very Happy New Year…

Maze

I am thinking to do something, not sure what to.

Not interested in – Work in the office from where I am typing this currently

Interested in – Music, Reading a book , Watching a movie, Traveling to a place in the wish list, Learning something about shooting out with my cam, learning about film direction, farming, philanthropy, learning painting..

Well there seems to exist more choice in what I want to do, but I do something which does not lure me enough.

Ironically, the one which does not fascinate me is the one that pays me and my bread, at least as of now.

So why is this designed so ? is it like the quote ‘Other side of river is always greener’ ? or I got stuck in a maze where I got used to, missing the other part of bigger adventure ?

Most of the heart is pushing me to break and get out into the vast ocean of freedom, wishing to be a freemen not bounding to four walls that are around me and my mind, to let things go, to float and not bound to the things from the gone past and coming future…

May be or may not be the world outside this part of maze is ecstatic or a peaceful white lotus or a rugged terrain, I need to know it.

Push and push and push….

Questions, thoughts and so on..

Inspite of all crappy things going around in office bought some time to go to Landmark and got the new book ‘Mozhi peyarpalan’ by Saru Nivethitha. Never read an book of ‘Izhakiya’ category before and it brought a lot of questions before me. I am not pretty sure if this is what real Izhakiya category is suppose to be like this but liked the flow and simplicity in the individual stories and individual personal notes in the book. Puzzled with lots of questions of how much I have come across in the so called interest in Tamil or even brought thoughts that how small the world which I knew was. There is a long way to go…

Screwed my trip !!

The trip I mentioned in the last post was about Iceland. Flight ticket booked, Car booked, Hostel booked. Somehow I did not feel like moving my ASS going alone, I did not make it for the trip !! I knew I am gonna feel for it. Sitting in Helsinki with my tickets back to India on June 21st. I don’t know when I will get this chance again to Iceland and this gonna reside inside me for a long time.

Few more weeks and a secret mission..

Finally after a long and big round of discussion I got to know my return dates approximately somewhere falling between June 20-22nd.

It was quite good time and a considerable long stay in Helsinki this time with 2 winter and 1 summer. A bit new group of people comparing to last time as well – adding Ramanan, Kiran, few more guys and bits and pieces of badminton games to the memory…

Also following is a secret mission before going back to India, for which I booked tickets today

Will update more on the trip later