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March 8, 2009

Bending before the EGO

Filed under: Me, Retrospection, lifecycle, people — karthicks @ 9:46 am

Tracing back a long way into the time i remember the first time recognition of the tree called expectations. For some good or bad reason it didn’t bother or i was too busy to get bothered at that time. Walking down a few years from that point i traced the same expectations during my teen age but this time i could recognize it was a bit strong now and having it roots in different points. Again one by one it got uprooted by itself  but not the taproot. As far as i could remember the tap root of the tree was growing deeper and deeper for approximately 5 years, a good time for it to grow strong enough. Incurring a heaving pain one fine day inside the walls of a cemetery uprooted the last tap root as well and had a feeling i am flying free and there is no more tree of expectation in my garden.

To prove all it was vain after almost 2 years, a little bit of chemical reaction im my mind showed me that those still exist, not necessarily in the form of  tree but as patterns i didn’t recognise for years,  playing a hide and hide game. I bow before you my ego and wish a day comes when i cross you forever and could enjoy my nudity rather than sitting crooked as this time. But one good about it as well, everytime i fight with you, then getting the pain, after the hard earned winning , those objects to which you were sticking seems to be more beautiful and glowing than ever.

November 9, 2008

**ChAnGe%%&&

Filed under: helsinki, lifecycle — Tags: , , — karthicks @ 8:54 pm

life keeps changing… always and always…here too some change..change in location…. change in people around..change and change…. is it gonna answer all my questions which was running across early…. may be…may be not….still it is a change….once i feel the answers are near will write again on this..till then i just keep tasting the change…..

October 20, 2008

Trend continues…

Filed under: lifecycle, people — Tags: — karthicks @ 11:49 am

Trend continues…. something is pulling in more and more …. couldn’t figure out exactly what is…..sitting idle….. feeling like brain had stopped working….nothing is passed in or out of mind…. driving crazy….sitting in  no man’s land….nothings seems to be interesting….i don’t remember sitting this way for a long time…. with no clue what it is all, the only option got is to watch inside silently what it is all and to know exactly where the thorn is stuck ….. may the very being be on my side !!!!

September 24, 2008

Right now !!!

Filed under: Me, lifecycle, people — Tags: , — karthicks @ 12:04 pm

What am i doing right now !!! I dont have an answer !!!

Getting up in the morning, brushing, shitting, bathing, eating breakfast, dressing myself thats washed and ironed by someone, riding a bike all the way from house to office, reach office remove my helmet adjusting my hair style in my half broken rear mirror, getting into lift reaching 8th floor, same security, same smile, same card swipe, pull the chair, switch on only the monitor of already running mahcine, check mails, check mails, check mails, browse something, chit chat about everything from politics to terrorism to bush to (more…)

February 13, 2008

A Roadside Painter, Chennai, India.

Filed under: lifecycle, people, poor, travel — Tags: — karthicks @ 5:45 am

Time: 8:30 pm.

Location: Guindy station, Chennai.

No one has to elaborate the city traffic at this time in this place. At this place i was in a need to find a place for parking the bike somewhere, since i need to wait for my friend siva and to pick him home. While searching for a parking place, i passed by a road-painting of Sai Baba and a lady collecting the coins thrown by the people crossing it. She was also adjusting the colours slightly at times. Having noticed this in many places i was really interested in knowing their living. So found some place, finally parked my bike and thought i would get into some conversation with the painter women there.I just came near the painting and kept watching for sometime. Few people crossed the place putting some money over the painting and few even stopped to pray to the painting of Sai Baba. By this time the source of light that she kept near got dimmed and she was getting the next one ready. Actually she was burning rolled piece of torn political posters that were posted nearby one by one as a light source(I was happy that these poster atleast has this use).

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June 6, 2007

D-Factor

Filed under: lifecycle, myth — karthicks @ 5:34 pm

Strange but i feel its the fact , its the D(ependency)-factor that drives u , me , he , she or even the whole world clock i believe. Taking a close analysis of the evolution of every individual life right from birth to death its this dependency factor that drives the cycle. (more…)

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